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If I Were a Boy...

Thu, 09 Apr 2009 09:05:22 GMT

I think Beyonce left out a huge part of what it feels like being a boy.
HUGE PART!! *TskTsk*
Seesh! Read on and you'll know exactly what I'm talking about.

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I don't like the feeling of waking up today.
just painful.
Went to college and it just didn't feel alright.
Went home to get some rest,
only to find out lying down brings so much discomfort.
Can't sit, can't stand, can't lie down, can't walk.
I hate this feeling.
Oh dear Lord, my body is falling apart.

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Dear male friends of mine,
Be happy and stay content.
Or I'll zap you and turn you to a girl!

not sleepy...

Thu, 26 Mar 2009 17:41:32 GMT

Kring Kring, Yellow yellow, please pink up your phone!!!

haha... just felt like kacauing you, Ming Wei :)

I shouldn't be blogging at this hour but I just can't resist.

I had to email a lecturer about a spelling typo. I'm find it funny and at the same time angry cuz the whole thing was typed out by students who wanted extra credit... They said they could type fast and make no mistakes... GUESS WHAT! They spelled my pretty name wrongly!!!

From Betsy to BERSY! I'm not Bersy, okayyy!

Heyyy! ONE ALPHABET MAKES A DIFFERENCE K??

Cannot!
Unforgiven!
Take away their extra credit!!

Unbiblical I know...!
But haiyah... ppl make mistakes and typos are common.
Anyway, I just can't sit there and do nothing right??? Right???

This is how the email went...

Dear Ms Dash,

I'm Betsy from your number dash dash dash class. Just thought I'd let you know that there's a spelling mistake in the dash dash duty roster (my name actually). I believe it's unintentional... but if you could help me change that to 'Betsy' instead of 'Bersy', I'll greatly appreciate it. Thank you very much.

Thanks,

Betsy

*Dashes are necessary for confidentiality purposes :) you should be big enough to understand.

Anyway, this post was meant to be short.

I think it's time that I ................

Free Association

Mon, 09 Mar 2009 08:23:54 GMT

I'm just gonna blog freely today. Am not gonna think so much and just type whatever that comes to mind.

Therapeutic? Maybe.

Random? Definitely.

So if there's any grammar mistakes, close one eye, aight?

Okay, so let me begin.

I'm currently listening to Are We Different - Priscilla Ahn on Kingsley's blog.
It's the only song I could listen now since I'm installing the new version Windows Live Messenger. And, it is demanded that I close everything I am doing. Don't know what to do with the old and cranky msn. Hopefully, this change would help. So, I'm gonna change the email address to - betsy_wly@live.com.my. I don't add strangers, by the way.

I want a camera. I wanna snap pictures. I wanna see the world. I wanna show everyone what I see. Ahh, money. can't have it all and can't live without it at all. Am not a econ student, where did all the money go? Why not just go print some more!? Just keep it printing lah, then no economic crisis. Why make things so difficult? Me, naive? I know, according to I-don't-know-what-law, printing money might not help and may cause more problems, right? *sigh* life is so..... ~~unfair~~ cute.

I wanna write a song. Write about how I am feeling & thinking, really. But, am I good enough? What if it sounds horrible? What if the chords are not right? What if I can't sing it? Even if I do have a tune, where's the time to write it? Can't find it.

Oh, holiday, please come!

I'll smile more, even if it's tough, I want to & I will.

I realized that I'm really bad in maintaining friendships, keeping in touch. I feel like the people around me are getting less and less. Perhaps, I've changed. The people I'd used to care for are just friends. old friends. Am I too busy? Am I too self-involved that I'm missing out on people's life? Or should I just forget about how close we'd used to be? I want to care, care for you and everyone I know. What happened to the enthusiastic "let's go and catch up?" I so very miss that.

I want to care.
I want you.
I want to care.
I want you.

Or, should I blame responsibilities, The Robber of Time!? Or, should I place the blame on my horrible time management and admit that I am the Robber of MY Own Time? Hah, Betsy and time...tsk tsk tsk.

God has been good. He has shown me over and over again that He's always there and He is funny.

It was just that day that I wanted to find a legal parking near college (KPD). Just didn't feel like parking illegally. And yes, I shouldn't. So, I double-parked for 20 mins and waited at one side, hoping that a car would reverse so that I could take his place. I prayed for parking, did my quiet time. On Sunday, I was taught to pray BOLD prayers. And so I'd put it into practice. I remember uttering, "God, if you want me to park my car here, please provide me a parking by 12pm, if you want me to park in Main block (@maincampus), give me no parking here, but parking there."

(Lolz, this is only BOLD prayer: level 1)

God answered and gave me no parking. Indeed, by 12pm, I moved to main block. took parking ticket and search for parking.

Parking was extremely full, with other cars parking behind cars. I waited a little more.

A kind gentleman came walking down to his car. He saw me waiting for a place & pointed to me where his car was. Blurry me, I wasn't sure if he was really talking and pointing at me. BUt anyway, I decided to follow him.

Nice. He stood outside his car (under the beautiful, HOT sun) and waited for me to get through the slim & sexy road. Thank God I wasn't driving thestorm!

2 or 3 cars were waiting along with him, waiting for him to get in and get out from there. I couldn't get through to him. Discouragedly, I smiled. "God, you must be kidding me." And no, He wasn't.

Kind gentleman shooed everyone, telling them that the place is for me. I saw his hand gestures. And so they moved. He saw me coming, smiled, got into the car and drove out.

I drove in and blessed God, blessed that gentleman - that parking was literally kept for me!! God is so amazing. I will continually make bold prayers, so that we all will get to see how good and glorious God is. Why should I doubt him some more? Parking to God is not a big deal and so is trusting Him my life.

Oh God, You are ever so wonderful.

All complaints above are worthless already, that's because You are in control and I know You'd care for me, and the big, wide world.

Okay, I should stop. need to go work.

Extremist??

Tue, 24 Feb 2009 16:18:40 GMT

It was a good week of midterms. Not that I've enjoyed midterms, but I had never felt so productive before (or maybe a long, long, lonnggg time ago). I've been waking up at 6.20am just to reach college by 8am and study there. Amazing, huh??

Well, that was last week!

This week??

...Excessive sleeping
...Overindulging on food
...Gaining weight
...Delaying assignments
...Loosing money

On the other extreme side. NOT GOOD!
Need to do a behavior check also...

Okay, I'm going jogging in the morning :)

-Must go for a haircut and eyebrow threading
-Do quiet time consistently and finish reading a book
-Set weekly goals!
-Get work done!
-and yet have enough sleep :)

Oh God, I need you...

Atas Tarikh

Mon, 09 Feb 2009 16:51:01 GMT

Translation: Up date = update :)

I'm still alive *BIG grins* even if you wish I was dead. Too bad, for you... I guess =)

Okay, there are really lots to update, but let me just go step by step. So, beary with me!

1) 2009 resolutions!! Outdated, I know!

I didn't have any resolutions last year and I realized that I've been running around aimlessly. It's really like chasing after stars that are not even there! So this year, should be more fruitful, I hope!

set weekly goals

be early/on time for class

go to church once a week to study (It's a very conducive place to studylah... really!)

delegate responsibilities

spend more time with people

complete THESIS this year

go for (budget) holiday

That's all I can think of at the tip of my head =)

2) THESISTHESISTHESISTHESISTHESISTHESISTHESISTHESIS
This WORD hasn't been this big until now! Speak about burdens, man!Never in my 22 years of life I'd dreamt about writing a thesis. And, it's not I really want to either! Honestly, I cannot imagine myselg writing a thesis. Simply cannot. How???

3) Valentines day this weekend... Hmm...
*sigh* dateless :(

It looks like I've got to call for a girls-day-out instead =) YF girls, let's gO somewhere k!?

4) Rabbit the rabbit died on Sunday :( Tragic.
Nevertheless, I thank God that I had my last moments with Rabbit before its last breath. Love you, Rabbit.

Special shoutout to:

JOHANNA
*insert picture here*

Happy belated birthday to you! (060294)
May you continue to grow in love with Him more and more each day!

SUE LYNN

*insert picture here*

...who is now in the faraway land - KALAMAZOO.
Happpppy Belated birthday! (070286)
May you come back faster and get married faster!
Goodness, YOU'RE 23!!! *gasps*

A Bruised Reed

Sun, 18 Jan 2009 17:28:57 GMT

Hey there :)

How often do you get to watch a movie in college? (without writing a report about it, at least!)
Well, here's your opportunity!

Okay, so what about the movie you may ask? This movie is produced locally and directed by Chew Cheng En, who felt God's calling to start producing movies. A bruised Reed is about a young man who had financial issues, who needed a big sum of money to save his friend. Desperately, he had planned to steal money from a disabled home. However, things did not go as he had planned; in fact, it became a turning point of his life. The trailer below can help you understand better :)

Details... Details... Details:

Date: 21st January 2009 (Wednesday)
Time: 12.30pm-2pm
Venue: HELP UC Wisma HELP DSA (Level 5, Activity room 1-2)
Who can come? Anyone :) (Untuk tontonan umum, sesuai untuk semua lapisan masyarakat) **EXCEPT the fact that this movie has Christian elements in it okay!!!**

How much? Rm 5 for a ticket (you can give more than Rm5)......of which 40% will go into the disabled home's fund.

Okay, so it's in Mandarin (forgot to tell you earlier)! But so what... there are English Subtitles :) and I bet you can read! Understandable and reliable.

I have personally watched it and have learned many things from the movie. Let me just share one. You see, we often separate ourselves from the weak (or disabled), thinking that we are stronger, more perfect. Well, physically maybe, but inside us, we are no different, having disabilities within us too, yes, not perfect AT ALL. One thing that we've got to admit that in one way or another, whether disabled or not, we all need Jesus, simply because because of Him, we are made perfect.

This is the one of the many of which I have learned. How bout you? Wanna learn something life changing? Really, you won't look at the disabled people the same way anymore after watching this.

3 reasons why you shouldn't let this movie pass you by:
1. It WILL be life changing.
2. You get to watch a movie and help the disabled people at the same time (how cool is that?)
3. You can't get this movie anywhere else (unless GSC or TGV decides to screen it)

I've got 2 words for you....

Don't miss!

You can get the tickets from me :)

Hehe :)

For more info, call me at 012-376 7215 or email me at booyobetz@gmail.com

Really... don't miss!

Die-lemma

Fri, 09 Jan 2009 05:54:13 GMT

I've never imagine having to make decisons like this. It's really like a matter of life and death! Seriously, there are consequnces to both ends!!

I don't know what to do or say!

God, HELP ME!!!

Underserving Grace

Tue, 06 Jan 2009 15:58:03 GMT

I felt the shudders of my body when Sharon told me that the results for last semester were out. Unlike every other semester, last semester was the worst season of my life. And, I�m left with myself to blame for all the wrong choices made... I deserve to eat and swallow my own consequences, and then dig my own grave.

Really, last semester was filled with a whole lot of mistakes that cannot be undone. Honestly, I don�t know what was going on. Life was in a mess. I remember crying over my messed up life over and over again. Never in my entire life had I felt such a failure till last semester.

Let me explain.

I�ve got a -2 for each of my subjects for not fulfilling requirements of attending experiments. Never have I missed this! Handed in assignment late and had more marks taken away. Missed almost 8/10 classes because I overslept. And even if I was in class, my mind was half of the time in outer space. Oh, what about exams then? I can only now regret that I didn�t finish studying the textbook and reading the notes.

What more can I say? I�ve now earned myself a Bachelor�s Degree in Procrastination, an upper class distinction in Poor Time Management course, and The Most Outstanding Worst Student award. Yay????

I cannot express how much I failed this semester.... So much for being a living testimony, huh?

There was one particular morning when I was already late for class, I remember driving even further away from college. I don�t know what went wrong that morning. I parked my car by the road side and I broke down. I felt crushed, hurt by my own wrongdoings. �God, I�m sorry I�ve failed You, brought You much disgrace. Please Lord, take me out of this mess that I�ve been living, this is not me, I don�t know who I am anymore.�

Just now, before I logged on to myPride (where I check my grades), I sat down prepared to accept whatever that comes.

Can�t remember who was that who asked me �what is grace�. Let me tell you, this is God�s grace - I�ve gotten what I don�t deserve: for the subject I thought I was certain that I am going to fail, a �C-� is what I�ve gotten. For the other subjects that I can�t remember what I�ve learnt, a �B-�is what it says I�ve gotten. I know B-�s and C-�s not great, never great at all; but, it�s MORE that what I truly deserve because I deserve to fail.

Please don�t mistake me as trying to brag or anything. With these grades, there�s really nothing to brag about. It�s just that I know God deserves praises because at times where all humans� effort failed, God is indeed in control. And it is where He seems silent and faraway; He�s there, next to you (and me).

I really deserve to fail that subject.

That�s the undeserving grace I�m talking about.

Dear Father, no words could express how thankful I am for that grace. I�m sorry for the wrongs I�ve done, for the messed-up life I�ve been living. Truly, this life I�m living now is all Yours and I humbly ask that You come and take control. I praise You and thank YOU for the people that You have brought into my life to help me out in seasons like this. I pray You�ll bless them too. Lord, once again, all glory and praise go to You and You alone. In Jesus� name I pray, Amen.

I thank God for this new year, it's a new beginning for me.

I am very determined to work hard this semester. I'm now using THREE (3) alarm clocks + 2 handphone alarms to wake me up in the morning. And have been reaching early to class these first 2 days of class, with an exception of one class cuz I went to the wrong class! Hehe!

God is good, all the time.

I'm BACK!

Fri, 02 Jan 2009 18:18:52 GMT

Hey there!

Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!
it's always never too late right???

There's just so much to say since I'm back from the internet break. Yeah, have not been online to chat, to blog, read blogs, or even surf the net. Well, I did check my email once in a while.

You know what? I've been taking a break off my handphone too. Just needed a break. Hence, I apologize for the lack of replies and the lack of "keeping-in-touch" kinda thing.

It's a good break- for me. First of all, it's a different kinda break. I don't normally get to break from phone calls or the net, so this break was just totally embracing freedom.... and I LOVE, LOVE, LOVE IT! So, update me bout yourself when you see me okay?

Secondly, I've invited Jasmine over to stay at my place for the holidays since dear sarawakian will be all alone back at Kasah. This is something that I have never done or experience before. I mean, of course there were people like Ai Li and Chia Wei who sleepsover once in a while but I'm talking about a 3-weeks-stay! Definitely, something new for me. Anyway, I hope she had a great time here.

Thirdly, Christmas was good. I still feel like there's something missing this Christmas, I don't know what.... but overall, it was okaylah. Like maybe, I was just too busy this Christmas till I miss the whole point of Christmas? Honestly, I feel alot like the Grinch this Christmas. It's not a good thing!!! Maybe this year, I'll just not do anything, sit back and just ponder on the meaning of Christmas? Can I? Or can I celebrate Christmas somewhere else? Or Maybe it was the people missing... like YOU were just missing? Like... I didn't get to see YOU? I'm really talking about YOU, the one reading THIS now! Yes, YOU!

Fourthly, baby cousin is staying at my place now for good. His parents just.... left them with us for the weekdays and will be taking him back for the weekends. _____ , ______ parents they are!!! You fill in the blanks lahh.... But the baby is so cute and having him here is like having another brother (or son) at home.

In conclusion, I finally got the break I needed and wanted! So, Hurrah for me! I hope this break or holiday season is a "Hurrah" for you too!

Heeeeeeeeeeh!

The next question I'm gonna ask myself is whether I'm ready to face the new year. I've got a tonnes of mixed feelings for this year. Yeah, everyone's talking about the economic crisis but I'm talking more about the THIRD YEAR that I'll be facing.

Nope, I have never imagined & cannot imagine being a third year student. Just cannot picture it. I don't even know whether I'm ready, whether I'm up to par, or whether I'm fit to even complete it. It's a scary thought, y'know!? But at the same time, I know I ain't quittin' and I am not going to give up.

Dear classmates,
Whenever you think I'm slacking, SLAP me, KICK me, PUNCH me, DANCE with me (haha, I know this last one does not really apply.... but whateva, you get the point), Please help me get serious....? KNowing that I am a ~~slacker and procrastinator~~ very busy person, help me by reminding me okay??? THANKS! We shall all go for holiday when our studies are over! Like a good holiday in Phuket or Bali, Japan or Hong Kong Disneyland, Bahamas *lost in outer space*

OKay, I'm about done now. I've got more to say but Jasmine is sleeping and I'm coughing and sniffing away here. I cannot be a mean roommate! So i shall shuddup both virtually and physically now.

Talk to YOU laturrrrr!

Oh no? Oh yes?

Wed, 17 Dec 2008 15:52:49 GMT

Hmm... I think I've lost it.

No, not loose my head...

I'm talking bout the passion for blogging...

should I continue or discontinue?

enlighten me puh-lease!