Therapeutic? Maybe.
Random? Definitely.
So if there's any grammar mistakes, close one eye, aight?
Okay, so let me begin.
I'm currently listening to Are We Different - Priscilla Ahn on Kingsley's blog.
It's the only song I could listen now since I'm installing the new version Windows Live Messenger. And, it is demanded that I close everything I am doing. Don't know what to do with the old and cranky msn. Hopefully, this change would help. So, I'm gonna change the email address to - betsy_wly@live.com.my. I don't add strangers, by the way.
I want a camera. I wanna snap pictures. I wanna see the world. I wanna show everyone what I see. Ahh, money. can't have it all and can't live without it at all. Am not a econ student, where did all the money go? Why not just go print some more!? Just keep it printing lah, then no economic crisis. Why make things so difficult? Me, naive? I know, according to I-don't-know-what-law, printing money might not help and may cause more problems, right? *sigh* life is so.....
I wanna write a song. Write about how I am feeling & thinking, really. But, am I good enough? What if it sounds horrible? What if the chords are not right? What if I can't sing it? Even if I do have a tune, where's the time to write it? Can't find it.
Oh, holiday, please come!
I'll smile more, even if it's tough, I want to & I will.
I realized that I'm really bad in maintaining friendships, keeping in touch. I feel like the people around me are getting less and less. Perhaps, I've changed. The people I'd used to care for are just friends. old friends. Am I too busy? Am I too self-involved that I'm missing out on people's life? Or should I just forget about how close we'd used to be? I want to care, care for you and everyone I know. What happened to the enthusiastic "let's go and catch up?" I so very miss that.
I want to care.
I want you.
I want to care.
I want you.
Or, should I blame responsibilities, The Robber of Time!? Or, should I place the blame on my horrible time management and admit that I am the Robber of MY Own Time? Hah, Betsy and time...tsk tsk tsk.
God has been good. He has shown me over and over again that He's always there and He is funny.
It was just that day that I wanted to find a legal parking near college (KPD). Just didn't feel like parking illegally. And yes, I shouldn't. So, I double-parked for 20 mins and waited at one side, hoping that a car would reverse so that I could take his place. I prayed for parking, did my quiet time. On Sunday, I was taught to pray BOLD prayers. And so I'd put it into practice. I remember uttering, "God, if you want me to park my car here, please provide me a parking by 12pm, if you want me to park in Main block (@maincampus), give me no parking here, but parking there."
(Lolz, this is only BOLD prayer: level 1)
God answered and gave me no parking. Indeed, by 12pm, I moved to main block. took parking ticket and search for parking.
Parking was extremely full, with other cars parking behind cars. I waited a little more.
A kind gentleman came walking down to his car. He saw me waiting for a place & pointed to me where his car was. Blurry me, I wasn't sure if he was really talking and pointing at me. BUt anyway, I decided to follow him.
Nice. He stood outside his car (under the beautiful, HOT sun) and waited for me to get through the slim & sexy road. Thank God I wasn't driving thestorm!
2 or 3 cars were waiting along with him, waiting for him to get in and get out from there. I couldn't get through to him. Discouragedly, I smiled. "God, you must be kidding me." And no, He wasn't.
Kind gentleman shooed everyone, telling them that the place is for me. I saw his hand gestures. And so they moved. He saw me coming, smiled, got into the car and drove out.
I drove in and blessed God, blessed that gentleman - that parking was literally kept for me!! God is so amazing. I will continually make bold prayers, so that we all will get to see how good and glorious God is. Why should I doubt him some more? Parking to God is not a big deal and so is trusting Him my life.
Oh God, You are ever so wonderful.
All complaints above are worthless already, that's because You are in control and I know You'd care for me, and the big, wide world.
Okay, I should stop. need to go work.